Sunday, April 29
7:58 PM
i like small fonts..sorry yaya..u use magnifying glass k?? large fonts make my blog look quite ridiculous =S hor?? *nods nods*
klunched with liyue and estee!! =P my com not co-operating.. stil cnt post pics =( estee's missing singing alr!haha.. yeh!! and we're supposed to b honoured coz liyue actuall sang..must be ziqiang always hogging the mic la!! ha.. really enjoy that session =) and liyue's really sweet..thankful to have such a loving dgl (^^,) i appreciate that sweet note..ALOT!!
does the past really matter..cnt help it =/ felt weird all over after i heard tt phrase =( BLEARGH! finally understand how ryl has been feeling =S
whee..watching spiderman3 with ceeh dearest!! havent been to movie premier b4..so quite excited..heh.. u better reply my letter! *angry!* how many MONTHs alr u tell me..
i knew gwen would fail me.. so glad i called her.. =) thx girl!! i'll show u a pic when i'm done..but..up til now..i havent really really decide wad to do lei..bleargh..
this could be the start of something new`
Tuesday, April 24
10:04 PM
maintaining a strong relationship requires the efforts of both person involved.. i'm talking about friendship actually.. coz i met CHING! my fav pinky fren =) i think the last time i saw her was, during the release of the A's? FEB! or was it early mar? she was such a great listener.. and i'm so glad we managed to share alot =) she's still as bimbotic..haha.. but she's smart la..is there a name for smart bimbos?? hmm..
yeh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ava!! i'm finally gonna watch phantom of the opera!! *happie!* yeh!!!!! she's so sweet coz she lent me her P.O.T.O. cd!! of course tt's not the onli reason la..heh
after the conversation.. i felt so stressed..actually kinda scared..dun ask me why..it's as if there are so many expectations that i have to meet..and i'll nv be up to that standard.. gotta be careful.. i guess all that i can do now is bury it..the deeper the better...
give me all the patience, strength and determination that i'll ever need =/
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Monday, April 23
2:36 PM
i think today's the most relaxed day i've ever had since a loooong time.. watching Monsters Inc. made me happy! and i'm glad i was able to let it out to someone..have been wanting to talk about it..but i'm just not good at expressing myself properly i guess..and i usually stop talking about sth when i sense 'boredom' from any of my listener.. =/ mayb that's whyy i like writing letters and bloggin? i get to talk..i mean type or write all i want..ranting on wadever i want..and i dun havta bother if anyone's bored..coz.. the veh most they don't read onli lor..i stil get to say my piece.. yujian was online.. and i'm glad he listened..i mean read.. =) *thx!* i shall paste it here coz i'm too lazy to explain evithing again.. heh
hav been so....drained the pass few weeks
parents...
it's like...i've got so much to do during the wkdays..admin til 5.30.. tuition at khatib 2times a week..tuition neighbour 2times a wk..
any other free time i hav..my sis and bro will ask me fer help too..
dun hav time fer myself..or my parents la..
thn sat and sun are the onli 2 free days i hav..sat usuall i go fer yf..sunday til 1plus i got sunday sku..
so i kinda spend quite lil time at home..
parents keep saying i treat the hse as hotel again..
and it's not like i want to teach so much lor!! helping sis n bro is..must help de rite..
the other 2 tuition is my parents want me to teach..say will get more exp..
and now they complain that i'm spending too lil time at home
few times because they say tt i REALLY felt like saying them..but..like not v nice oso..
so i feel quite..erm...constipated kinda feeling..
*sniffs* and my dad gave me some other work to do.. he say since u so free keep going out on wkends..think u can help me with these..
and so..today i took off..to slack..partly also to finish the paper work..and prepare for my tuition class later..
really don't want to make it seem as though i take my parent's concern for granted.. i seriously don't.. =/
crying helps relieve stress i think =)
thankfully i got to enjoy myself during the wkend =) mahjong at chewy's hse was fun..poor ceeh was doin' wk.. it's the company rite girl?? hang on...dun give up yet!! u've come THIS far..
yf : capt's ball during yf..super small grp..but better.. more fun i guess.. i was the capt. (first time) heh..the chair's so scary..and adrian n (oh no..i duno how to spell the other guy's name) kept trying to scare me (pretends to knock against the chair i stood on) so that i won't pay attention to the ball =S went for dinner with em after tt.. we did so many weird stuff with our fingers, hand, face..it was hilarious..heh.. liyue said she made some observations and asked me a super weird, ( in her opinion 'cheeky' qns ) ..stil ask me THINK abt it.. (better not..find problem fer myself only).. and it's not like i've got not enuff qns to think abt..haha..
hardly talked to dearest marker.. =( and she's leaving this comin wed!! =/ *whines* hope japan will be memorable fer her =)
sunday service was..erm..i kept stoning..shucks..it's just too distracting to sit at the back =( sunday sku made me think..hmm..there's homework!
went to mit ping to do kat's stuff.. sorry girl, for being so impatient =( duno wad's wrong with me..but thx for being so understanding! *muacks!*
yeh...tml's tuesday!!and i'm gonna mit ching!!!!
it's raining now!! so comfy! *esp when i'm at home..grins*
don't think i should..but i like ur presence =/
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Friday, April 20
10:58 PM
it's finally the end of the week again! *rejoices*
royce chocs are super nice!! it's the first time i see chocs remaining 'bite-able' when u take 'em out of the FREEZER.. mummy made me go all the way to suntec just to get her more chocs!haha.. really saddening to walk all the way from cityhall to suntec alone.. =/
weeling's bday tml! went to diva to get weeling's present!her bday tml =) got her sth i v bu she de buy fer myself..it's weird how we are willing to buy stuff as present for others..but so unwilling to spend on ourselves.. that's whyy.. [marker and i] and [ceeh n i] have our 'gift exchange' sessions.. sounds kiddy..but we love it! -seriously.. seems like we're buying sth for each other..but we're actually buying it for ourselves..heh.. having lesser of those sessions now.. we're all bz with our own ths now.. =(
oh.. and i got glass paint to play with!got it from page one.. it was impulsive shopping!*shucks*
got yawen rabbit fur earmuffs! duno real fur or not la..but feels nice.. she said it's getting colder in china =( but it's not snowing la.. just got it for her coz i tot of her when i saw it..couldnt NOT buy..heh..
thx..it was really really comforting.. *grins*
wonder how's didi..he got baptised on..the sat before easter sunday.. (duno if i've mentioned..he's a catholic.. stil duno the diff between cats and other chr) hopefully he's doin' better now..in everyway.. =)
yeh!! i'm finally gonna meet up with CHING!! my longlost..but lifelong PINKY partner..-.- hehe..
i'm happie tt i finally got to chat with ceeh over the fone on my way home again!! (although she was sup to study =S..)
this could be the start of something new`
Tuesday, April 17
8:16 PM
we finally had our cedele lunch!! nice toasted bread!!*shared joy* (^^,) shopped for my notebk..off for yf.. sorry marker i forgot my umbrella AGAIN =( i'm glad u were not as drenched..so not moody..heh.. was kinda worried u'd end up moody =/ went sakae fer dinner after tt...few of us onli..marker and few others had SLP.. =( first time not eating the meal at sakae.. not like i always go la..ordered side dishes..so nice!!
went klunch on kath's bday!! giant rose, cake!, cards.. our fav photo-taking session, crapping, SINGING!, lunching! she kept drifting off a few times..hmm..
[ai de zhu xuan lu!] <------- MUZ go listen!!
went out wit ping after tt! told her..heh.. tt poor girl.. said she's the loneliest girl on earth just coz her simon went tekong -.- we were looking for kath's present..in the end..got her some musical thing.. similar to the one jh got me..oh! and i found out the title of tt tune.. "hey jude" nv hear the actual song b4..
it has been such a tiring week..and i cnt recall the stuff tt has happened this wk..mental block...lazy refer to journal..oh wells..shall stop here..
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Friday, April 13
8:07 PM
it has been a REALLY long and tiring week =(
TUES
tender's closing date reaching..so the whole office was rushing our tender docs..madness.. no time for proper lunch.. getting irritated my supervisor.. irritated by the fone calls..irritated by sub-contractors who break their promises about their quotes =/ worked til 7.30..cabbed to cck, sponsored by company.heh. met gwen for a short meet up!! (and i'm ALWAYS waiting for her! humph) we were just wondering about.. the important part was catching up on each other's life la.it was really diff to talk to her sometimes..she gets distracted SO easy while ur talkin.and u gotta repeat urself..takes alot of patience =) haha..1 hr plus onli and we gotta leave =( bumped into ms lim at cck too!! *smiles*
WED
paper cuts, pokes from staples, aching feet and back.. *tired* madness..worked til 10.30pm -.- it was the last day before the 12th whr we had to hand in our tender docs.. so all of us stayed back to try finish evithing so tt we wun havta rush on thurs.. we had macs for dinner..and the ang mohs din like it at all..ha.. the whole office was disgustingly filled with paper!! and we hadta punch holes and file..horrid..boring..sometimes i end up daydreamin while punching holes..amazing. sister's day too!! ryl ryl got me STICKERS! sometimes i really wonder : am i the younger sis or is she the younger sis?ha..
THURS
our bosses brought us to the yacht club to give us a treat during lunch. it's a really pretty place! small but comfy looking.. the food's good too! was very disappointed coz in the end the ang mohs decided not to hand in our set of documents and joined venture with another company.wad's this!! our 3months of work gone to waste =( so i'm officially free from that project now! means i'm no longer under connie!!whee!! u'll nv know how relieved i'm feeling now.heh.. went to giv ttn at khatib. i'm seriously taking over tt class now. my first class lei.hee..stupid mrt train had a fault on it's way to khatib..was late for class..no time for dinner =S but i had happy drink after that! *grins* kath's bday coming..but havent decide whr to go.. has been really diff to meet up with our darling ceeh and kath coz they're studying =( and ping's working the weird hours! =S *angry* i'm gonna find some sort of work on your bday too! humph! [just some qi hua..]
FRI
time moved really slowly at work -.- nth to chiong for..all the clearing of the files and documents make me want to cry.. =( our hard work!! oh well..i stil get my pay.. bleargh.. nth interesting..oh..and i worte my article for bsyf website..sth about spg day =) will put it here when i'm less lazy..heh.. oh!! and i found a little mermaid song which i long forgotten!! *in harmony*
//notgoodenough=(//
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Monday, April 9
5:47 PM
yest was the first time i attended easter sunday service! may hav attended while i was younger..but cnt rem ath.. yep..so yest was first.. woke up at 5.50! coz service was at 8.30.. *pouts* whyy muz it b sooo early.. rahh.. sunday school was interesting! thx liyue for purposely coming all the way down to mit corli and me!
today's ept was BAD!! urgh.. sick of describing it alr.. sniffs.. had my coffee milkshake from ms!! like u said..it really lightens mood! with huikheng.. so qiao.. we went taka fer lunch tgt =) finally met yaya online!! china's getting colder..so put on thicker layers girl!!
deprived of movies
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Saturday, April 7
11:28 PM
an empty grave is there to prove my saviour lives!
and because he lives
i can face tomorrow
because he lives
all fear is gone
and because i know
i know he holds the future
my life is worth the living
just because he lives
this could be the start of something new`
Friday, April 6
8:39 PM
baked cookies today!! when was the last time i baked??hmm...should b 2 years alr.. lucky still edible..too sweet onli.. urgh..nvm =)
studying for english isn't fun at all =S
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Wednesday, April 4
8:47 PM
dun mind the lil mistakes at the lyrics part..haha..lazy to edit.. *reading love hina*
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whyy cant i insert a pic! *angry!*
daddy wants me to take over a p4 class in yishun..every wed and fri =( lidat i wun hav time fer myself! teaching hui 3 times a week is already taking up alot of my time.. i just wan to go back to the normal 'super free' times.. when all i havta worry about is ... studies.. -.- (not much better though)..but at least i get to plan my own time!! =S i like to just sit at home.. arrange my stuff..watch tv..talk to mum n dad.. (^^,) //hmm..think i'll get bored lei// argh..i dunno wad i want.. whyy do we havta worry so much about earning..bleargh.. that's like one of the most impt thing in my head..since after A's.. *disgusting!!*=S
next MON!! *worried* -and here i am on the com..how fake- -.-
love this song! - music and myrics- way back into love :
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long, Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time, To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there, There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
[chorus]
**All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
this could be the start of something new`
Tuesday, April 3
7:45 PM
i love going out with grace!haha.. went hong kong cafe fer dinner.. but she was late and din pick up my call! talking about stuff we seldom talk about.. dun even remember talkin to her bout in sec sku la! and her air-con story (^^,) saw serena and angela on the way to marina square.. stil not sure about angela's david yeo story...hmm.. shall find out next time =) taught ryl til v late..got very impatient with her..feeling quite bad now.. shall go do vocab exercise alr.. *sulks*
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Sunday, April 1
8:59 PM
briefly on my week:
started email yawen!i miss her! she's been in china er such a long time alr.. and will onli come back in june =S but reading her emails at work really helps to brighten my day at work..work can get really sian -.-
found out tt yujian and i take train from the same station eviday..ha..ard the same time too..it's been such a long time since we met.. last yr's april??
went raffles city to change the shirt..they dun lemme keep the tag! =( so saddening..and the musical thing was interesting!thx!din get to buy the doughnuts again!!7.30pm onli and they said they were running out of stock alr =(
marker finally got out!went her hse hav dinner again..just spent time tgt la..played with hamster =) took pics from her..
i keep callin ceeh but she din pick up! *pouts* din even return call..humph
i want to watch music & lyrics.. *sulks*
havent been studying for eng prof test =S argh..bad habits cannot b kicked easily..in this case..it's not having enough passion to study..haha.. although i really wanna go back sku =( i dun like working..dun like it at all!!!!!
i have no idea y i fet like crying when i say it..do i mean tt little? =/or izit over-sensitivity? [whyy m i reminded of resistivity? yuck! physics is disgusting!]
//tellmewadshouldido//
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klunch was SO disappointing! they said they ran out of food!wad kinda service is this!they onli replaced the lunch with a pathetic cup of milo! ping, jh and i were so cold n hungry in there.. so not happy..but..singing was stil fun! =) went secret recipe with them after tt fer tomyam spag! was kinda late fer yf =S missed the praise n worship part..*pouts* the speaker din arrive..we played a couple of games indoor coz it was raining.. thn capt's ball!
went to taka with marker! had mos..finally gotta try how mos' milkshake tasted like (^^,) i LOVE it! walked ard lookin for our second album..stil cnt find! =S our iced milk tea really made me recall those mugging days we had at mos!!
stil thinking if i shuld quit vanoord to join mcys lei..though pay will b a lil lower..but at least there'll b ppl i know there..
ah..i want the toothpick! duno wad was i thinking and doing..shucks
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